DAY 37: Fear of aging

One of the points that has been preoccupying my mind lately is the process of aging and linking it to pain and suffering.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to submit to the energy fluctuations of the mind, by giving into fear and feeding the consciousness system.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the fear of aging system and giving my directiveness to that system.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to preoccupy my mind with thoughts that do not promote well-being and life, but rather promote energy via anxiety and fear.

When and as I see myself participating in thoughts of fear of aging, I  pause and I breathe. I realize that by participating in this means that I am not being here in the present and that I have given away my directive principle to consequence/outcome which is something that is in the future.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wish that no one would age and simply enjoy eternal life on this planet. When and as I see myself engaging i wishful thinking, I pause and I breathe. I realize that life is and will always be here no matter what. The concept of eternal life which is being described in biblical terms is simply a concept which has been misrepresented. I understand that there is no point wishing for eternal life as in awareness is eternal regardless of whether we are in a physical body or in spirit.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear  that as I get old, I will experience pain and suffering.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate fear to aging and concluding that this is a negative experience and that I  may not be able to handle it due to fears of unknowns.

When and as I see myself experiencing emotions due to fear of the unknown, I pause and I breathe. I realize that by putting a negative connotation on aging, that I am participating in the polarity game. I commit to realizing that there is no point fearing aging as I  have the power to use my mind in practical ways to ensure that I engage in actions which support the well-being of the physical as opposed to fearing that it will be negative regardless when this may or may not be true. I realize that by participating in thoughts that aging is a bad thing that I will in fact create that experience with time. I commit to standing up for life and realizing that there are advances in medical technology which if investigated properly can direct us to lead healthier lives. In addition, I have realized that nature has also created plants or substances which promote healthy well being and it is just a matter of engaging in proper habits including eating to ensure that we support our bodies.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel that I will become powerless and useless and lonely when I get old. I commit to engaging in activities such as dancing, walking, doing creative things with my hands to ensure that I will be of great assistance to mankind. Activities that old people do can include reading and talking to other people. 


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel that I will become a burden to my kids and that they will ditch me in a place where I will be miserable and isolated. If I were to experience isolation and being a burden, I pause and I breathe. I realize that this is simply a societal conditioning that only promotes self-sabotage if one chooses to believe in it. The truth is that people who rule countries are not all young, some choose to become president once they are 60. There is absolutely no reason for one to feel like a burden to their kids because one can simply engage in actions which will mutually serve both us and the kids. A practical example would be to give money to the kids so that they can be a caregiver or simply hire another person who will be a caregiver. I also realize that the only person who will decide if I will be alone and miserable is me. I can choose to find a group of other people to share a house or apartment with so that I can spend my remaining days still learning about other people's perspectives and enjoying the present.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate negative emotions such as anger, bitterness and frustration that I can't control the outcome of this life and that I will eventually have to give in to the notion that I will leave my physical body.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to link old age to death and therefore experience friction towards aging.
When and as I see myself wanting to blame someone for creating physical death, I pause and I  breathe. I realize that this is something that I also participated in by agreeing to come down to this earth to have this physical experience. Therefore, I take 100 per cent responsibility for the decisions that I have made and choose to live a life where I can transcend as many fears as I can so that I can stand up for life and prepare myself for my life review. I choose to be grateful for taking a physical form because this is my chance to really stand up and remove all reactions that I experience which tell me what I have separated myself from. I realize that with age, I also gain more wisdom and that my life improves for the better if I choose to do things which are best for all and keep things as practical as possible.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that my parents are aging and that life is too short.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that someday my husband will leave me all by myself to carry on with this life.
When and as I see myself fearing loss of loved ones, I pause and I breathe. I realize that is is pointless fearing that as this is a truth and the greatest truth is that in the end, we will not remember all the people who we have spent life with. Therefore, what is practical is to appreciate the time I have with my loved ones here in this physical form and integrate things in my life which I have separated myself from.