I have constantly throughout my life have tried at many attempts to take the role of the saviour, where if something went wrong or if someone I deeply cared about needed help, I would try to do all I could to help out. This construct had also lead to me taking everyone's problem upon my shoulders and constantly worrying about them all the time.
In my life, there are a few instances where I see that I automatically give into the temptation of just wanting to help. As an elder sister, I find that with my brother whenever he needs to have something done for him, such as getting his loans and tuition fees paid, I immediately stepped to the rescue because initially I did not want him to have any more debts. Therefore I spent a few thousand dollars on helping him out without considering how that decision affects other parts of my life.
Another person who I always try to save is my own mother. Whenever she tells me something where she feels unhealthy or sad, I instantly internalize that and consequently if there is no solution to it, end up feeling overwhelmed and insecure. That also made me go out and do stuffs to attempt to fix the situation so that she would feel better, but in the end, I have come to realize that no matter what I have done or do, it does not fix the root cause of the problem. It is simply putting a plaster on a wound.
My dad also tells me how living paycheque by paycheque affects his future, as he does not know what will happen when he retires with regards to the house. I suggested that I take over the mortgage payments but he refused it because he wanted me and my husband to start from scratch. I felt a bit betrayed by that, but I understood that he wants to help my brother out as well.
Taking the whole world's problem on my shoulders has been something that I have almost been born with. It is high time that I allow myself to let go of this construct that has done a fabulous job at imprisoning me and preventing me to live.
Wednesday 30 October 2013
Monday 28 October 2013
Day 17: SF on Meditation
I forgive myself for allowing myself to consider meditation as a form of stopping my thoughts, without proper investigation.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to see meditation as a form of betterment, where one will attain the highest levels in the afterlife such that they will be closest to God.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to not observe my breath whenever my thoughts start coming.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to allow my thoughts to direct me and create more fear and anxiety in me.
I realize that meditation has simply become an act to prevent us from directing ourselves in this physical universe as it almost seems as a form of escapism, where one would purposely try to take a break from this world by engaging in meditation to avoid taking responsibility for what one has created. I commit to standing here in breath, to stabilize self in any event where self faces instability and redirecting self via looking at the situation from a practical perspective and taking responsibility for what self is currently accepting and allowing.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to see meditation as a form of betterment, where one will attain the highest levels in the afterlife such that they will be closest to God.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to not observe my breath whenever my thoughts start coming.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to allow my thoughts to direct me and create more fear and anxiety in me.
I realize that meditation has simply become an act to prevent us from directing ourselves in this physical universe as it almost seems as a form of escapism, where one would purposely try to take a break from this world by engaging in meditation to avoid taking responsibility for what one has created. I commit to standing here in breath, to stabilize self in any event where self faces instability and redirecting self via looking at the situation from a practical perspective and taking responsibility for what self is currently accepting and allowing.
Day 16: Anxiety and meditation
When we look at treatments for anxiety and depression, it is fascinating how a lot of people instantly conclude that meditation will help calm or remove the anxiety. Therefore, I decided to investigate this further.
I have just finished listening to this video
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/iTxtnPKB7GU/ on the construct of meditation. Since birth, I have been taught that meditation is simply an attempt to stop our thoughts. Yet, after listening to this video, I came to the realization that meditation is simply an act of temporarily trying to stop the mind because it has become overactive. That is fascinating. Throughout history, people have used meditation as a form of ascension as in an attempt to try to meditate so that they can reach the highest level of spiritual attainment or simply reincarnate into what they desire to reincarnate as (as per the vedas/mahabharata).
2 months ago, when my anxiety disorder came into manifestation, I was told to begin meditation. In the past I had tried to do so but had failed miserably because every time I would attempt to suppress my thoughts, it would just keep on coming and consequently, I felt I was a failure. Currently, I am trying to walk this point as in determining what really would be effective when it comes to getting over anxiety. I am really glad for the support we have through the Desteni I process when it comes to searching for answers. It seems that a lot of what is being told and practiced in this world are just completely the reverse of what should really be implemented, meditation being one of them.
However, there is a worldwide awakening or enlightenment currently going on around the globe and meditation has now found its way to the western world where celebrities are preaching or practicing it. The question is: who is making all the money? And if we investigate further, the yoga and meditation business is one of the fastest growing industries in north america. I myself was really stunned when I came to North America 14 years ago and westerners were preaching to me about meditation. That is something that I thought only existed in eastern societies. What really surprised me was the amount of people going into it. People are also very eager to inform you that meditation does work when it comes to healing depression, without really considering what the starting point of meditation really is. Meditation is simply an act of trying to be out of this world for an instance and if one continuously does it, they are simply attempting to create a life where they are not participating in the physical. They are simply participating in their minds because they are not directing themselves to provide a solution which is best for all by being here in physical expression on this planet.
So the question to ponder upon is what really works? And the answer to that is simply to watch the breath. Some people choose to do a 4 s count each time they inhale, hold and exhale. Yet, simply focusing on breath is what will develop self-awareness.Also the reason why meditation was created in the first place is because of an overactive mind which creates diseases such as anxiety and depression and therefore now we have to create something to alleviate those conditions. Watching one's breath throughout the day will allow us to develop a sense of slowing the mind which will also entail us to be in the moment.
I have just finished listening to this video
http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/iTxtnPKB7GU/ on the construct of meditation. Since birth, I have been taught that meditation is simply an attempt to stop our thoughts. Yet, after listening to this video, I came to the realization that meditation is simply an act of temporarily trying to stop the mind because it has become overactive. That is fascinating. Throughout history, people have used meditation as a form of ascension as in an attempt to try to meditate so that they can reach the highest level of spiritual attainment or simply reincarnate into what they desire to reincarnate as (as per the vedas/mahabharata).
2 months ago, when my anxiety disorder came into manifestation, I was told to begin meditation. In the past I had tried to do so but had failed miserably because every time I would attempt to suppress my thoughts, it would just keep on coming and consequently, I felt I was a failure. Currently, I am trying to walk this point as in determining what really would be effective when it comes to getting over anxiety. I am really glad for the support we have through the Desteni I process when it comes to searching for answers. It seems that a lot of what is being told and practiced in this world are just completely the reverse of what should really be implemented, meditation being one of them.
However, there is a worldwide awakening or enlightenment currently going on around the globe and meditation has now found its way to the western world where celebrities are preaching or practicing it. The question is: who is making all the money? And if we investigate further, the yoga and meditation business is one of the fastest growing industries in north america. I myself was really stunned when I came to North America 14 years ago and westerners were preaching to me about meditation. That is something that I thought only existed in eastern societies. What really surprised me was the amount of people going into it. People are also very eager to inform you that meditation does work when it comes to healing depression, without really considering what the starting point of meditation really is. Meditation is simply an act of trying to be out of this world for an instance and if one continuously does it, they are simply attempting to create a life where they are not participating in the physical. They are simply participating in their minds because they are not directing themselves to provide a solution which is best for all by being here in physical expression on this planet.
So the question to ponder upon is what really works? And the answer to that is simply to watch the breath. Some people choose to do a 4 s count each time they inhale, hold and exhale. Yet, simply focusing on breath is what will develop self-awareness.Also the reason why meditation was created in the first place is because of an overactive mind which creates diseases such as anxiety and depression and therefore now we have to create something to alleviate those conditions. Watching one's breath throughout the day will allow us to develop a sense of slowing the mind which will also entail us to be in the moment.
Thursday 24 October 2013
Day 15:SF on friends
This is a continuation from last night's blog where I was talking about friends. So I recall when being little the one proverb which stated: A friend in need is a friend indeed. Throughout my life I have pretty much filtered people out based on this proverb where whenever I came in contact with someone I would subconsciously see where they fit in this picture and see if I have a chance to develop the friendship or just not bother with it.
With that, I realize that I only made friends who simply justified my personality and gave me the recognition that I seek. What is also interesting is that when a so called friend comes into my life and she exhibits most of the characteristics of the proverb but not all of it, then she is almost seen as a threat or someone who may not fit the description of what a friend is supposed to be. That is when the mind goes into so much backchat where we end up questioning why the person behaves the way they behave and why can't they all just not be like us?
When I look deeper at this point I find that it manifests in all my relationships and therefore I will do self forgiveness on all of that. There are 4 people I interact with who almost but not entirely fit this friends in deed criteria and every time I think about them, my mind is always analyzing where they fit and what is lacking.
1. K- problem: she does not express love or send love signals in reality, but she definitely does so in virtual reality. I can't trust that she will go out of her way to do something for me because there is not that trust establishment.
2. seb- he does not help with chores in the house because he feels it is not his house so therefore he does not need to contribute to anything. I wish he would be more helpful as in helping out with chores or cooking something for my parents because they cook for the both of us
3. t- wish she would be less annoyed and just do her work whenever they come. She has a sweet personality and seems helpful but sometimes it is hard to trust her because when I was sick and going through a panic attack, she did not consider stopping her work and supporting me. She was just too annoyed with her own stuffs to bother.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to question all of the above people for not being a best friend because of certain criteria that they do not meet. I forgive myself for allowing myself to wish that if I desperately needed help tomorrow that all of the above would rush to me instantly and support me. I realize that this wishful thinking is only fueling my victim mode where if I do not have someone who can be my support structure then it means that I am doomed and that I have nobody to count on.
When and as I see myself afraid of being left by myself in the future and not having anyone to count on, I pause and I breathe. I tell myself that this is just another pre-programmed script that I am accepting and allowing where the fear of feeling abandoned is too consuming to the point where I am not enjoying the present moment where I am being supported by various people but instead allowing the fear of uncertainty to dominate. I commit to realizing that the gift of now is what we should be seeking and not preoccupying ourselves with the what if scenario.
With that, I realize that I only made friends who simply justified my personality and gave me the recognition that I seek. What is also interesting is that when a so called friend comes into my life and she exhibits most of the characteristics of the proverb but not all of it, then she is almost seen as a threat or someone who may not fit the description of what a friend is supposed to be. That is when the mind goes into so much backchat where we end up questioning why the person behaves the way they behave and why can't they all just not be like us?
When I look deeper at this point I find that it manifests in all my relationships and therefore I will do self forgiveness on all of that. There are 4 people I interact with who almost but not entirely fit this friends in deed criteria and every time I think about them, my mind is always analyzing where they fit and what is lacking.
1. K- problem: she does not express love or send love signals in reality, but she definitely does so in virtual reality. I can't trust that she will go out of her way to do something for me because there is not that trust establishment.
2. seb- he does not help with chores in the house because he feels it is not his house so therefore he does not need to contribute to anything. I wish he would be more helpful as in helping out with chores or cooking something for my parents because they cook for the both of us
3. t- wish she would be less annoyed and just do her work whenever they come. She has a sweet personality and seems helpful but sometimes it is hard to trust her because when I was sick and going through a panic attack, she did not consider stopping her work and supporting me. She was just too annoyed with her own stuffs to bother.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to question all of the above people for not being a best friend because of certain criteria that they do not meet. I forgive myself for allowing myself to wish that if I desperately needed help tomorrow that all of the above would rush to me instantly and support me. I realize that this wishful thinking is only fueling my victim mode where if I do not have someone who can be my support structure then it means that I am doomed and that I have nobody to count on.
When and as I see myself afraid of being left by myself in the future and not having anyone to count on, I pause and I breathe. I tell myself that this is just another pre-programmed script that I am accepting and allowing where the fear of feeling abandoned is too consuming to the point where I am not enjoying the present moment where I am being supported by various people but instead allowing the fear of uncertainty to dominate. I commit to realizing that the gift of now is what we should be seeking and not preoccupying ourselves with the what if scenario.
Day 14: what are friends for?
I am sure we have all heard the phrase "what are friends for?" I grew up with another phrase which sounds like ' A friend in need is a friend indeed." For the past few weeks my mind has been pondering about this point and I am constantly trying to determine where I fit in the picture. With my recent panic disorder I have come to understand more about who cares and who does not care.
Yet with that also comes this point of expectation which I am currently facing. For instance today I had a mild anxiety episode and I called up my husband to see if he could come fetch me. When he didn't answer the phone, I got angry and my mind went into the backchat mode telling me that he was just being an awful husband and that he was totally non supportive. Then I began to blame him for being too independent and carefree and almost worthless as what was the point of being with someone if they aren't with you in your sickest moments.
Another person who came up was with the 'friend' who I meet most of the time. Since we have known each other for 10 years now I expected her to take me to the doctor or care for me. She did care for me in the sense where she brought me a blanket and towel and made me tea when I visited her last week, but yet, what was interesting is that I felt no love coming from her. I just felt she was doing it just to be nice. The weird thing is that her friend took me to the doctor and she made sure I arrived home on time, which made me feel really good because I could feel from her she is a genuinely caring person. The vibes that this person gave off was a sincere love and compassion for another being, which I did not find in the friend I have known for 10 years.
I find that really interesting. The weird thing is that I know my friend is nice and friendly and whenever I do meet her I enjoy our conversations. At the same time I don't feel the closeness which I wish I could feel. In a way sometimes I feel I am being used because she is of the type to always want to meet up and talk. The interesting thing is that I have met her other friends and they are really nice and it seems that if they were my friends I would have definitely felt a connection, based on vibrations or compatibility wavelengths.
Then I remind myself that we all have our different personalities and we are all mirror images of one another. Though I wish that I had more support from people in this hard moments via emotional support, I also do realize that placing expectations on others also implies that you are avoiding taking 100% responsibility for what you are accepting and allowing. Yes I WOULD love for my husband to be with me 100% of the time and support me by putting his hands around my shoulders and telling me that I am here for you and everything is just going to be fine. Yes, I would love to have friends who are like nurses to me and bring me to places and treat me like a princess. Yes, I would love to have parents who never compared me and expected me to love their dreams. But these are things I can't control.
My husband does have his own life to live and punishing him by wanting to manipulate him in such a way by placing unrealistic expectations on him for my own self interest is just not best for all. What I now have come to realize is that we are all on our own here and that nothing is eternal. What my husband is teaching me is that I need to take control of my life and not rely on him to be there for me throughout my whole life. He is teaching me to stand on my own feet as I AM the creator of my life and I decide how I choose to live it. I understand that, yet, I can't help but think what is the purpose of people coming together if there is no 100% support. And in this, I compare my relationship with that of my parent's and I see where my husband fits in the picture. When he fails to act like my dad does, that makes me feel so insecure and I feel that he is not a good husband and that he does not care for me.
What my friend is telling me is indeed the same as my husband. She is telling me that yes, she will go some way to help, but definitely not all the way. She is also telling me that she does care for me, but obviously she doesn't care for me enough to go out of her way to help out. She is also telling me through her personality is that she is nice but also sometimes she gets short tempered and bored fast too. I also just realized that she has her own insecurities around bonding with others especially when it comes to forming a relationship, and that can also manifest in other types of relationships.That is probably what is happening here. She consciously cares for people but unconsciously has trouble either showing affection or forming secure bonds. The bottom line is that that is who she has accepted and allowed herself to become. And that is sad because she puts in a lot of effort to maintain friendships but at the same time she can't seem to protrude a sense of genuine love as in being compassionate to others. What she is showing me is that she is simply befriending to ensure that she has friends around her to socialize with and therefore it is all about pleasing the mind. Therefor this does not fit in the phrase of "A friend in need is a friend indeed." and because I have defined friendship based on this proverb, if my friends do not fit that phrase then that means they are automatically rejected.
What can I learn from all of this? Will do SF next blog.
Yet with that also comes this point of expectation which I am currently facing. For instance today I had a mild anxiety episode and I called up my husband to see if he could come fetch me. When he didn't answer the phone, I got angry and my mind went into the backchat mode telling me that he was just being an awful husband and that he was totally non supportive. Then I began to blame him for being too independent and carefree and almost worthless as what was the point of being with someone if they aren't with you in your sickest moments.
Another person who came up was with the 'friend' who I meet most of the time. Since we have known each other for 10 years now I expected her to take me to the doctor or care for me. She did care for me in the sense where she brought me a blanket and towel and made me tea when I visited her last week, but yet, what was interesting is that I felt no love coming from her. I just felt she was doing it just to be nice. The weird thing is that her friend took me to the doctor and she made sure I arrived home on time, which made me feel really good because I could feel from her she is a genuinely caring person. The vibes that this person gave off was a sincere love and compassion for another being, which I did not find in the friend I have known for 10 years.
I find that really interesting. The weird thing is that I know my friend is nice and friendly and whenever I do meet her I enjoy our conversations. At the same time I don't feel the closeness which I wish I could feel. In a way sometimes I feel I am being used because she is of the type to always want to meet up and talk. The interesting thing is that I have met her other friends and they are really nice and it seems that if they were my friends I would have definitely felt a connection, based on vibrations or compatibility wavelengths.
Then I remind myself that we all have our different personalities and we are all mirror images of one another. Though I wish that I had more support from people in this hard moments via emotional support, I also do realize that placing expectations on others also implies that you are avoiding taking 100% responsibility for what you are accepting and allowing. Yes I WOULD love for my husband to be with me 100% of the time and support me by putting his hands around my shoulders and telling me that I am here for you and everything is just going to be fine. Yes, I would love to have friends who are like nurses to me and bring me to places and treat me like a princess. Yes, I would love to have parents who never compared me and expected me to love their dreams. But these are things I can't control.
My husband does have his own life to live and punishing him by wanting to manipulate him in such a way by placing unrealistic expectations on him for my own self interest is just not best for all. What I now have come to realize is that we are all on our own here and that nothing is eternal. What my husband is teaching me is that I need to take control of my life and not rely on him to be there for me throughout my whole life. He is teaching me to stand on my own feet as I AM the creator of my life and I decide how I choose to live it. I understand that, yet, I can't help but think what is the purpose of people coming together if there is no 100% support. And in this, I compare my relationship with that of my parent's and I see where my husband fits in the picture. When he fails to act like my dad does, that makes me feel so insecure and I feel that he is not a good husband and that he does not care for me.
What my friend is telling me is indeed the same as my husband. She is telling me that yes, she will go some way to help, but definitely not all the way. She is also telling me that she does care for me, but obviously she doesn't care for me enough to go out of her way to help out. She is also telling me through her personality is that she is nice but also sometimes she gets short tempered and bored fast too. I also just realized that she has her own insecurities around bonding with others especially when it comes to forming a relationship, and that can also manifest in other types of relationships.That is probably what is happening here. She consciously cares for people but unconsciously has trouble either showing affection or forming secure bonds. The bottom line is that that is who she has accepted and allowed herself to become. And that is sad because she puts in a lot of effort to maintain friendships but at the same time she can't seem to protrude a sense of genuine love as in being compassionate to others. What she is showing me is that she is simply befriending to ensure that she has friends around her to socialize with and therefore it is all about pleasing the mind. Therefor this does not fit in the phrase of "A friend in need is a friend indeed." and because I have defined friendship based on this proverb, if my friends do not fit that phrase then that means they are automatically rejected.
What can I learn from all of this? Will do SF next blog.
Sunday 20 October 2013
Day 13: I thought we were friends
Today I had a couple of happenings which made me a bit concerned. A person who I thought of as a best friend to me no longer seems to be on facebook, for unknown reasons. Yet, today while being on another person's account I realized that she was on facebook and I assumed that the only reason why I couldn't see her is because she blocked me. I thought to myself well this is really weird and as far as I recall, I didn't say anything bad to her. My mind started to instantly go into this mode where I was trying to search for answers as to why she must have done this.
Some dimensions that came up:
1. fear of abandonment
2. fear of no longer have someone who cares for me and who I can count on in harsh moments
3. sadness that a long term friend suddenly disappeared
4. victim personality: Why does this always happen to me? What did I do to deserve this?
It is fascinating how we create this circle of people who we define us as and when something goes wrong in the circle, we end up fearing. We fear what we have done to cause or deserve this. We fear loss. We experience emotions that only consume us to the point where if we don't do something about it as in seeking out the truth, we get very agitated and almost paranoid. What I did was immediately email that friend and ask her where she is and how she is doing. The weird thing that happened is that I searched for her again on facebook and now suddenly she is in my friends list. I found that really awkward. I couldn't understand whether it was the email that I sent her that caused this happening or whether she had unblocked me before that. Anyways, that does not matter here. What matters is that a situation happened and I automatically reacted to it.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear being abandoned by someone who I look up as my sister.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear that the person who I trusted the most no longer cares for me and that I have no one to refer to as a best friend anymore.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to experience sadness that a friend who I care about suddenly disappeared on me for no reason.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to engage in this victim personality where I allow my mind to instantly go into backchats where I end up self sabotage.
When and as I see myself fearing abandonment, I stop and I breathe. I realize that this fear of abandonment came from childhood where my teacher abused me by always punishing me and this created abandonment as I was split from the rest of the group.
When and as I see myself fearing that the person who I trusted the most no longer seems to care anymore, I pause and I breathe. I realize that some relationships were just never meant to be in the first place and that such relationships created out of seeking something from the other being is not a supportive relationship.
When and as I see myself fearing that if that person is no longer my friend and therefore I am alone and no one will be my friend anymore, I stop and I breathe. I realize that this is just a mind program that is running to lead me to self-sabotage where instead of standing up and taking responsibility to actually form bonds that are stable and operate out of oneness and equality, I am simply allowing emotions to rule me over and getting me to simply accept defeat and stay a victim lifelong.
I commit, once and for all, to realize that not all relationships that are created will stand the test of time and that such relationships are the reason for why this world operates the way it is, where self interest via greed has become the predominant factor into creating most of our relationships such that people only use and abuse one another to achieve that what they want to achieve. I commit to break this cycle of using people where I just want them to be my friends just because of the need to feel secure in case something goes wrong and instead commit to finding those who I am compatible with and who will maintain the relationship out of the principle of walking life together as a group.
Some dimensions that came up:
1. fear of abandonment
2. fear of no longer have someone who cares for me and who I can count on in harsh moments
3. sadness that a long term friend suddenly disappeared
4. victim personality: Why does this always happen to me? What did I do to deserve this?
It is fascinating how we create this circle of people who we define us as and when something goes wrong in the circle, we end up fearing. We fear what we have done to cause or deserve this. We fear loss. We experience emotions that only consume us to the point where if we don't do something about it as in seeking out the truth, we get very agitated and almost paranoid. What I did was immediately email that friend and ask her where she is and how she is doing. The weird thing that happened is that I searched for her again on facebook and now suddenly she is in my friends list. I found that really awkward. I couldn't understand whether it was the email that I sent her that caused this happening or whether she had unblocked me before that. Anyways, that does not matter here. What matters is that a situation happened and I automatically reacted to it.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear being abandoned by someone who I look up as my sister.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear that the person who I trusted the most no longer cares for me and that I have no one to refer to as a best friend anymore.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to experience sadness that a friend who I care about suddenly disappeared on me for no reason.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to engage in this victim personality where I allow my mind to instantly go into backchats where I end up self sabotage.
When and as I see myself fearing abandonment, I stop and I breathe. I realize that this fear of abandonment came from childhood where my teacher abused me by always punishing me and this created abandonment as I was split from the rest of the group.
When and as I see myself fearing that the person who I trusted the most no longer seems to care anymore, I pause and I breathe. I realize that some relationships were just never meant to be in the first place and that such relationships created out of seeking something from the other being is not a supportive relationship.
When and as I see myself fearing that if that person is no longer my friend and therefore I am alone and no one will be my friend anymore, I stop and I breathe. I realize that this is just a mind program that is running to lead me to self-sabotage where instead of standing up and taking responsibility to actually form bonds that are stable and operate out of oneness and equality, I am simply allowing emotions to rule me over and getting me to simply accept defeat and stay a victim lifelong.
I commit, once and for all, to realize that not all relationships that are created will stand the test of time and that such relationships are the reason for why this world operates the way it is, where self interest via greed has become the predominant factor into creating most of our relationships such that people only use and abuse one another to achieve that what they want to achieve. I commit to break this cycle of using people where I just want them to be my friends just because of the need to feel secure in case something goes wrong and instead commit to finding those who I am compatible with and who will maintain the relationship out of the principle of walking life together as a group.
Tuesday 15 October 2013
Day 11: The people pleaser
The wanting to always please everyone has been a point I have struggled for years. With that, I developed this 'likeability person' where I would shape myself so that I can please someone else by trying my best to become likeable. When that personality backfired, I would go into this energetic state of taking things personally where I would experience unpleasant movement in my body leading to more backchats. Therefore I became a victim and this point has been my predominant manifestation of the mind consciousness system since I was a kid.
For the past few months, I have tried my best to avoid the people who I felt were very different from me. What came out of this situation was more and more bitterness because now I felt left out and miserable being all by myself. Whenever someone would behave in a way that I would dislike, that would make me sad and more miserable because I am just used to being a victim, created out of the desire to be a likeable person.
So the people pleaser leads to taking things personally which leads to becoming a victim. One recent realization I have come to understand is that it is ridiculous to please everyone because this is a belief that the mind wants us to do to self-sabotage. The truth is we can't control what another being things of us. People will decide if they want to hate or love or just accept us for who we are. Therefore, how can we fix this flaw to ensure that we can function effectively as a team at work?
The 'people pleaser' is definitely something leading to self sabotage. First, it is impossible to please everyone because every being comes with their own perceptions and beliefs. For instance, I was reading some post made by an individual on a forum. The post in itself was positive as in it was congratulating people for taking a step to lead a better life. Most people were in favor of that with one exception. One person found the post very insulting because their interpretation of it was :"Are you telling me that I didn't know what I was doing?" They automatically assumed that the post was rendering them as a person who didn't make use of their brain while taking a decision.
That was definitely an eye opener for me. It made me realize that no matter how nice you can be and no matter how great your intentions are, the truth is that there are people out there who just will never agree. This has nothing to do with you, the being. It is more of a reflection of who they are. You, the being, are just providing a trigger for the other person to react to. That incident also made me realize one more thing. While most people saw the reading for what it was, as in, being congratulated for doing something good for them, a few (in this case 1) didn't agree. Yet, it is fascinating how this one/a few outliers are the ones we tend to put a lot of focus and weight one. We don't focus on the fact that most people actually saw it for what it was.
This situation parallels my work situation where I feel negative about wanting to go back to work because of a few people. Yet, the majority of them are really great to be around and nice to talk to. The mind however seems to want to preoccupy itself with the few that are able to fuel it with energy via backchats. It is also interesting how the mind wants to manipulate and cause more anxiety. I have been on medical leave for 5 weeks now, but every single moment my mind has been preoccupied with work. I have been trying to read a book to get my mind to at least focus on the present but even that has been really challenging.
Despite all, I am committed to once for all, changing myself by doing my self corrective applications. Even if that will take me time, I am in the process of being in the 'now'.
For the past few months, I have tried my best to avoid the people who I felt were very different from me. What came out of this situation was more and more bitterness because now I felt left out and miserable being all by myself. Whenever someone would behave in a way that I would dislike, that would make me sad and more miserable because I am just used to being a victim, created out of the desire to be a likeable person.
So the people pleaser leads to taking things personally which leads to becoming a victim. One recent realization I have come to understand is that it is ridiculous to please everyone because this is a belief that the mind wants us to do to self-sabotage. The truth is we can't control what another being things of us. People will decide if they want to hate or love or just accept us for who we are. Therefore, how can we fix this flaw to ensure that we can function effectively as a team at work?
The 'people pleaser' is definitely something leading to self sabotage. First, it is impossible to please everyone because every being comes with their own perceptions and beliefs. For instance, I was reading some post made by an individual on a forum. The post in itself was positive as in it was congratulating people for taking a step to lead a better life. Most people were in favor of that with one exception. One person found the post very insulting because their interpretation of it was :"Are you telling me that I didn't know what I was doing?" They automatically assumed that the post was rendering them as a person who didn't make use of their brain while taking a decision.
That was definitely an eye opener for me. It made me realize that no matter how nice you can be and no matter how great your intentions are, the truth is that there are people out there who just will never agree. This has nothing to do with you, the being. It is more of a reflection of who they are. You, the being, are just providing a trigger for the other person to react to. That incident also made me realize one more thing. While most people saw the reading for what it was, as in, being congratulated for doing something good for them, a few (in this case 1) didn't agree. Yet, it is fascinating how this one/a few outliers are the ones we tend to put a lot of focus and weight one. We don't focus on the fact that most people actually saw it for what it was.
This situation parallels my work situation where I feel negative about wanting to go back to work because of a few people. Yet, the majority of them are really great to be around and nice to talk to. The mind however seems to want to preoccupy itself with the few that are able to fuel it with energy via backchats. It is also interesting how the mind wants to manipulate and cause more anxiety. I have been on medical leave for 5 weeks now, but every single moment my mind has been preoccupied with work. I have been trying to read a book to get my mind to at least focus on the present but even that has been really challenging.
Despite all, I am committed to once for all, changing myself by doing my self corrective applications. Even if that will take me time, I am in the process of being in the 'now'.
Monday 14 October 2013
Day 10: I don't deserve this, it is too much for me.
Yesterday, my husband and I were browsing for houses to buy. We looked at the pictures of the houses and there were a few which were quite big, almost like mansions, with some luxury inside.
As I saw myself looking at the pictures, this fear came into me. I started to tell my husband that I would not like to live in this house because it is too big for me and I feel that it is too posh for me to live in. I felt insecure and out of place even if I haven't even step foot in that place.
I sometimes look at luxurious houses which are costly and I ask myself: Could I ever live in that? And the answer I get is no. I feel that I don't deserve this place.
The same applies to buying a luxurious car.
Dimensions to consider:
1. Fear that someone will break in and cause chaos.
2. Fear that people will judge me as being vain and selfish
3. Fear that I will be overwhelmed and lost in that house
4. I don't deserve this big house because I am not worth it
5. Why should I need that much space when most people on this planet are living in huts. Self sabotage
6. People should not build mansions. We should all just live in medium sized houses and be happy with what we have.
7. Feel bad for other people who aren't able to afford the luxury house, so out of 'respect' for them I will sacrifice myself.
8. Feel pressured to have everyone else live in a big house if I am living in one, so I have to help others be able to do the same and that causes more fear.
Self Forgiveness
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear that people will break in and hide inside the house.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to self sabotage because of the fear that I will be judged negatively by others
I forgive myself for allowing myself to compare myself with the rest of the planet who are not able to afford a luxurious lifestyle and therefore self sabotage by just living a mediocre life or do whatever I need to do to ensure that every single being on this planet lives in a mansion, therefore leading to more fear and a feeling of being overwhelmed.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to buy into the belief that I am not worth a big house, I am only worth something mediocre and I should be just grateful for whatever I have and not strive to develop my potentials to achieve more.
When and as I see myself engaging in self sabotage, where I find a million reasons to justify why I should not live in a luxurious house and obtain a luxurious car, I pause and I breathe. I realize that all this backchat has only been a manifested reality because of my acceptance and allowance that we only need to be grateful for whatever we get, therefore justifying the mediocre lifestyle and also following limiting belief systems that society and religions have placed upon us. I also realize that this wanting to just live a mediocre lifestyle is a result of my past bullying experience where I would purposely put myself in a position where I am inferior to the bully, so that she does not gossip about me to other people and tell everyone else to stop talking to me. I commit to stopping this backchat of always putting myself in an inferior situation to become this 'nobody' personality to prevent myself from getting noticed and therefore avoiding gossip and being faced with confrontations, therefore leading to a life where I am sheltered. I commit to investigating houses by stepping into them, observing my body reactions, and breathing through all backchats that could deter me from appreciating the house I am visiting. I commit to making practical decisions when it comes to buying a house ensuring that there is no self sabotage involved and that I am one and equal to the house I will buy.
As I saw myself looking at the pictures, this fear came into me. I started to tell my husband that I would not like to live in this house because it is too big for me and I feel that it is too posh for me to live in. I felt insecure and out of place even if I haven't even step foot in that place.
I sometimes look at luxurious houses which are costly and I ask myself: Could I ever live in that? And the answer I get is no. I feel that I don't deserve this place.
The same applies to buying a luxurious car.
Dimensions to consider:
1. Fear that someone will break in and cause chaos.
2. Fear that people will judge me as being vain and selfish
3. Fear that I will be overwhelmed and lost in that house
4. I don't deserve this big house because I am not worth it
5. Why should I need that much space when most people on this planet are living in huts. Self sabotage
6. People should not build mansions. We should all just live in medium sized houses and be happy with what we have.
7. Feel bad for other people who aren't able to afford the luxury house, so out of 'respect' for them I will sacrifice myself.
8. Feel pressured to have everyone else live in a big house if I am living in one, so I have to help others be able to do the same and that causes more fear.
Self Forgiveness
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear that people will break in and hide inside the house.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to self sabotage because of the fear that I will be judged negatively by others
I forgive myself for allowing myself to compare myself with the rest of the planet who are not able to afford a luxurious lifestyle and therefore self sabotage by just living a mediocre life or do whatever I need to do to ensure that every single being on this planet lives in a mansion, therefore leading to more fear and a feeling of being overwhelmed.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to buy into the belief that I am not worth a big house, I am only worth something mediocre and I should be just grateful for whatever I have and not strive to develop my potentials to achieve more.
When and as I see myself engaging in self sabotage, where I find a million reasons to justify why I should not live in a luxurious house and obtain a luxurious car, I pause and I breathe. I realize that all this backchat has only been a manifested reality because of my acceptance and allowance that we only need to be grateful for whatever we get, therefore justifying the mediocre lifestyle and also following limiting belief systems that society and religions have placed upon us. I also realize that this wanting to just live a mediocre lifestyle is a result of my past bullying experience where I would purposely put myself in a position where I am inferior to the bully, so that she does not gossip about me to other people and tell everyone else to stop talking to me. I commit to stopping this backchat of always putting myself in an inferior situation to become this 'nobody' personality to prevent myself from getting noticed and therefore avoiding gossip and being faced with confrontations, therefore leading to a life where I am sheltered. I commit to investigating houses by stepping into them, observing my body reactions, and breathing through all backchats that could deter me from appreciating the house I am visiting. I commit to making practical decisions when it comes to buying a house ensuring that there is no self sabotage involved and that I am one and equal to the house I will buy.
Tuesday 8 October 2013
Day 8 and 9: The Fear of making a lot of money
I just finished listening to a really great interview on The fear of making a lot of money and I must say that this audio is definitely something we should all hear. This audio made me question where I stand in relationship to money and I came to the realization that there are indeed several dimensions to consider.
Since my early age, I have always been told : "You must not marry someone who is poor or rich. He must be in the middle. The reason is because if he is too rich then he won't care about you and you will have a miserable marriage. Also if he is too poor, well obviously he won't be able to support you. Money is therefore the root of all evil."
This stayed with me a long time and it almost became a belief where now I fear my husband getting rich because I fear him leaving. Also, I was imagining my own brother having a lot of money and again I began to fear that happening because he has always been given money and never had to struggle to earn it. Therefore, if he came across tons of money, how will he suddenly react to it? What will he do with it? Will he end up going in the wrong direction? What if he marries a woman who only wants him due to his money and she ditches him after? All this backchat came into my mind and the weird thing is when I imagined myself having a lot of money, I also went into this anxious mode where I am like : "ok, what am I going to do with all this?" I felt as if I was not ready to get a lot of money and also in a way, I felt some form or unworthiness.
The interesting thing is that this situation has not even happened. But just the thought of it made me wonder and made me realize that obviously I have some insecurities around money. It almost seems as if you wish you didn't come across a big sum of money so that you can remain in your own comfort zone for the rest of your life. How interesting, considering the fact that we all want to win the lottery but at the same time we have a lot of fears around having a lot of money.
Here are some dimensions to consider:
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear that if I make a lot of money that my partner will no longer be with me.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear that I will be harassed by officials such as govt agencies and charities
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear the unknown as to what shall I do with all the money I have
I forgive myself for allowing myself to experience anger and frustration at the notion that most of the money will end up going to the government so why at all work hard to earn it if you will lose half of it
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear that people may steal your money
I forgive myself for allowing myself to experience disbelief that I will not be able to ever earn that much money because I just do not have that much confidence in myself
I forgive myself for allowing myself to allow society to rule me over such that I will not be liked and be popular because I have too much money, or I will be liked for the wrong reason such as being used because I have a lot of money
I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that those who have a lot of money are arrogant and too vain and should not exist
I forgive myself for allowing myself to not be able to trust me in my abilities to manage my money if it is too much.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to live with the limiting belief that one should only be grateful for what one already has, and therefore limit myself to not allow my potentials to develop and grow and therefore live the rest of my life in mediocre.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that money is the root to all evil because a lot of money makes people break hearts or engage in activities which only breed greed.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that women should not be materialistic, but rather just simplistic or else they are not real women.And if they are materialistic then they are not the type of women who should exist
I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that if a woman is materialistic then that means that men will not like or marry her
I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that becoming a multi millionaire or billionaire is just too far fetched and that I will never make it, so give up and never bother even dreaming about it.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear that if my kids are brought up in a wealthy family then they will become too spoilt and do drugs and never will be humble or compassionate.
When and as I see myself expressing anger, fear, guilt, embarrassment, disbelief from wanting to make a lot of money, I pause and I breathe. I tell myself that all these backchats are nothing but simply preprogrammed belief systems put in place from the collective mindset of society and creation to attempt to create a reality pathway where I am just satisfied with what I have, therefore robbing me of opportunities to do something of value in this life, like standing up for oneness and equality.
When and as I see myself participating in backchats where I judge others who have a lot of money, I stop and I breathe. I tell myself that these are simply my beliefs and perceptions and do not depict reality and since I can't find for myself if my perceptions are true or not, then I am not going to participate in beliefs that I can't prove.
When and as I see myself not wanting a lot of money because of the fear that government and charities will spy on me, I pause and I breathe. I realize that these agencies are simply part of a system which is designed to keep people in check and this is something we have all collectively accepted and allowed. I therefore commit to accepting the fact that there are no secrets on this planet and in the universe and that money is simply a renewable resource. Therefore, since I can't control what agencies are doing, I commit to ensuring that I stand one and equal to the system in place, and perform whatever duties within the system which needs to be performed to ensure that there is no disruption in my financial consequence.
When and as I see myself fearing that my kids will end up being spoilt, I pause and I breathe. I commit to ensuring that I teach my kids the values that they will need to become effective kids and beings on this planet. I also commit to not indulging in behavior that promote consumerism but use the money in a way which will benefit all.
When and as I see myself fearing being liked or disliked because of my money, I pause and I breathe. I tell myself that people who decide to like me or not has nothing to do with me, but rather what they wish to do. I am simply reflecting to people what they are accepting and allowing. I commit to continue to remain true to who I am, develop humility and compassion, and continue to assist mankind in whatever way I am able to.
Since my early age, I have always been told : "You must not marry someone who is poor or rich. He must be in the middle. The reason is because if he is too rich then he won't care about you and you will have a miserable marriage. Also if he is too poor, well obviously he won't be able to support you. Money is therefore the root of all evil."
This stayed with me a long time and it almost became a belief where now I fear my husband getting rich because I fear him leaving. Also, I was imagining my own brother having a lot of money and again I began to fear that happening because he has always been given money and never had to struggle to earn it. Therefore, if he came across tons of money, how will he suddenly react to it? What will he do with it? Will he end up going in the wrong direction? What if he marries a woman who only wants him due to his money and she ditches him after? All this backchat came into my mind and the weird thing is when I imagined myself having a lot of money, I also went into this anxious mode where I am like : "ok, what am I going to do with all this?" I felt as if I was not ready to get a lot of money and also in a way, I felt some form or unworthiness.
The interesting thing is that this situation has not even happened. But just the thought of it made me wonder and made me realize that obviously I have some insecurities around money. It almost seems as if you wish you didn't come across a big sum of money so that you can remain in your own comfort zone for the rest of your life. How interesting, considering the fact that we all want to win the lottery but at the same time we have a lot of fears around having a lot of money.
Here are some dimensions to consider:
- Fear of abandonment from relationship
- Fear that one will always be harassed by other agencies like the govt
- Fear of the unknown- not knowing what to do with all this money
- Fear that everything will go to taxes and that one will be left with hardly any
- Fear that people will rob your money
- Disbelief: lack of confidence in self to achieve that amount of money
- Society: It is sinful to have a lot of money as you will not be liked and popular
- If you have a lot of money that means you are an arrogant person
- Not able to trust self with being able to deal with money
- It is better to just accept whatever you have and not strive to do any better in terms of money
- Money is the root of all evil
- People won't like girls who are materialistic. So just be simple and guys will like you.
- Making millions is like the impossible dream. It it so far fetched for me and I will never make it
- Fear kids will end up being spoilt and rotten
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear that if I make a lot of money that my partner will no longer be with me.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear that I will be harassed by officials such as govt agencies and charities
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear the unknown as to what shall I do with all the money I have
I forgive myself for allowing myself to experience anger and frustration at the notion that most of the money will end up going to the government so why at all work hard to earn it if you will lose half of it
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear that people may steal your money
I forgive myself for allowing myself to experience disbelief that I will not be able to ever earn that much money because I just do not have that much confidence in myself
I forgive myself for allowing myself to allow society to rule me over such that I will not be liked and be popular because I have too much money, or I will be liked for the wrong reason such as being used because I have a lot of money
I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that those who have a lot of money are arrogant and too vain and should not exist
I forgive myself for allowing myself to not be able to trust me in my abilities to manage my money if it is too much.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to live with the limiting belief that one should only be grateful for what one already has, and therefore limit myself to not allow my potentials to develop and grow and therefore live the rest of my life in mediocre.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that money is the root to all evil because a lot of money makes people break hearts or engage in activities which only breed greed.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that women should not be materialistic, but rather just simplistic or else they are not real women.And if they are materialistic then they are not the type of women who should exist
I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that if a woman is materialistic then that means that men will not like or marry her
I forgive myself for allowing myself to believe that becoming a multi millionaire or billionaire is just too far fetched and that I will never make it, so give up and never bother even dreaming about it.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear that if my kids are brought up in a wealthy family then they will become too spoilt and do drugs and never will be humble or compassionate.
When and as I see myself expressing anger, fear, guilt, embarrassment, disbelief from wanting to make a lot of money, I pause and I breathe. I tell myself that all these backchats are nothing but simply preprogrammed belief systems put in place from the collective mindset of society and creation to attempt to create a reality pathway where I am just satisfied with what I have, therefore robbing me of opportunities to do something of value in this life, like standing up for oneness and equality.
When and as I see myself participating in backchats where I judge others who have a lot of money, I stop and I breathe. I tell myself that these are simply my beliefs and perceptions and do not depict reality and since I can't find for myself if my perceptions are true or not, then I am not going to participate in beliefs that I can't prove.
When and as I see myself not wanting a lot of money because of the fear that government and charities will spy on me, I pause and I breathe. I realize that these agencies are simply part of a system which is designed to keep people in check and this is something we have all collectively accepted and allowed. I therefore commit to accepting the fact that there are no secrets on this planet and in the universe and that money is simply a renewable resource. Therefore, since I can't control what agencies are doing, I commit to ensuring that I stand one and equal to the system in place, and perform whatever duties within the system which needs to be performed to ensure that there is no disruption in my financial consequence.
When and as I see myself fearing that my kids will end up being spoilt, I pause and I breathe. I commit to ensuring that I teach my kids the values that they will need to become effective kids and beings on this planet. I also commit to not indulging in behavior that promote consumerism but use the money in a way which will benefit all.
When and as I see myself fearing being liked or disliked because of my money, I pause and I breathe. I tell myself that people who decide to like me or not has nothing to do with me, but rather what they wish to do. I am simply reflecting to people what they are accepting and allowing. I commit to continue to remain true to who I am, develop humility and compassion, and continue to assist mankind in whatever way I am able to.
Saturday 5 October 2013
Day 7: Self forgiveness on consuming Junk Food
I forgive myself for allowing myself to succumb to the temptation of eating junk food after my work shifts.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to feel guilt and fear whenever I consume unhealthy food.
I forgive myself for allowing myself for not realizing that all cells are linked and connected together and that they communicate in harmony to ensure that the body is fully functional
I forgive myself for allowing myself to develop an aversion to vegetables, especially in their raw form.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to be dictated by ads and the media which promote eating junk food
I forgive myself for allowing myself to develop this lazy character due to my aversion to vegetables where I would purposely avoid consuming the vegetables that my body needs to sustain itself
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear putting on weight whenever I would consume junk food.
When and as I see myself seeking to eat junk food, I pause and I breathe. I immediately shift my mind into thinking that this type of food does not sustain life and does not promote preventative medicine. I commit to standing one and equal to life where all foods I consume are foods that are here to support my physical body and not food that are here to just promote more disease conditions.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to feel guilt and fear whenever I consume unhealthy food.
I forgive myself for allowing myself for not realizing that all cells are linked and connected together and that they communicate in harmony to ensure that the body is fully functional
I forgive myself for allowing myself to develop an aversion to vegetables, especially in their raw form.
I forgive myself for allowing myself to be dictated by ads and the media which promote eating junk food
I forgive myself for allowing myself to develop this lazy character due to my aversion to vegetables where I would purposely avoid consuming the vegetables that my body needs to sustain itself
I forgive myself for allowing myself to fear putting on weight whenever I would consume junk food.
When and as I see myself seeking to eat junk food, I pause and I breathe. I immediately shift my mind into thinking that this type of food does not sustain life and does not promote preventative medicine. I commit to standing one and equal to life where all foods I consume are foods that are here to support my physical body and not food that are here to just promote more disease conditions.
Day 6: Food as preventative Medicine
Today I was just browsing articles and I came upon a very interesting article:
This makes for a much more even mood, better feelings of control over one’s life and also for more of a sense of calm and well-being. Researchers have made the link that bacteria in the gut actually has the ability to communicate with several areas of the brain, which may explain why those who have beefed up on probiotics enjoy better overall mental health.
In the past month, my digestive system failed to function 100% and I was trying to figure out what had lead to all of that. I knew that the bad bacteria in the gut were predominant because no food was being absorbed in my body. After reading this article, I realized how important our thoughts are when it comes to our physiological functions. Never would I have thought that my good bacteria are actually communicating with my brain to ensure that I am able to sustain myself. In addition, I would have never made the link between stress and good bacteria, though now after reading the article it seems quite obvious!
This study goes to show how important it is to consume food that really sustains each little bacteria and cell of our body. I have come to realize one thing out of this whole episode which is the notion that preventative medicine is far better than detective medicine. Imagine living in a world where diabetes, high cholesterol, heart diseases and cancer did not exist. What type of lifestyle would we enjoy?!
The question is: How do we get there? Instead of us thinking that we only have one life to live so we might as well eat anything, why not make a mind switch where we use food as medicine. Indeed, our ancestors have taught us that there are so many herbs, vegetables and fruits out there that have really great potential for healing and preventing. Yet, it seems that in North America and now also in the rest of the world, people seem to really develop an aversion to eating vegetables and fruits because the junk food industry really does a great job at advertizing. This is really predominant in kids who are fussy eaters and do not want to eat vegetables.
I must admit reluctantly that I was also in the same boat. In my case, prior to my condition, I just hated having to cook vegetables and eat them. I would eat them whenever my mum would cook them, but I just hated having to buy and cook them. I had developed this sense of aversion despite knowing that this was not healthy. Somehow I had assumed that my body would take care of itself and thrive even if I didn't consume vegetables. Yet, now this has totally changed. The medical condition I am in has taught me to really step out of this prisoner's mind game where I have allowed the fast food industry to rule me over by not being able to avoid buying.
I found it really hard after my shift at midnight to head home with a hungry stomach when McDonald's was open. It was too tempting and despite trying to breathe a few times to stabilize myself, my mind would just rule over and I would give in. After consuming the food, I would feel guilty and scared of putting on weight.
To add to that, stress which is triggered by thoughts and backchat are what really cause disease. I had a lot of anxiety that was building up day by day since the past few years and I had never dealt with them. I just allowed myself to take on everyone's problems and that lead to my body saying: STOP! I can't take in more shit. You need to really change this pattern that you have accepted and allowed in yourself. Start eating foods that are right for your body and that will help your body sustain itself. Do not eat those foods that will just cause more harm.
It is fascinating how we have created a world where to sustain ourselves financially, businesses that do not necessarily sustain life have to prevail. These businesses and our allowances are what cause our bodies to go haywire and then we need another business called the Pharmaceutical industry to save us. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if we all decided to stop eating junk food. If all these fast food chains were replaced by smaller family run restaurants that served healthy food, wouldn't we live in a healthier world?
There needs to be a mind shift in this world where we wake up and really realize what is going on. What we are accepting and allowing us just not helping us. It is in fact destroying us as we are living in a world where we are constantly being bombarded with products and food that we do not need to sustain ourselves. I know most of us are thinking that we need to buy these products to sustain the economy, but that goes to show that we are placing more emphasis on keeping the economy running as opposed to putting our health first. Why on earth would we allow that? Please visit http://equalmoney.org/
Probiotics work double duty as antidepressant
Stress actually lowers the healthy probiotic flora called lactobacilli and bifidobacterium, which inhibits the absorption of nutrients capable of elevating mood and regulating the facilities which alleviate stress and anxiety. At the very least, this means that probiotics have an indirect effect on mood.Eating yogurt with active cultures reduces pain and emotional response triggers
Another intriguing study shows that those who eat active culture yogurt daily exhibited a reduced reaction in the areas of the brain the control the senses of pain and strong emotion. At the same time, the areas that govern decision making were exhibiting an enhanced level of activity.This makes for a much more even mood, better feelings of control over one’s life and also for more of a sense of calm and well-being. Researchers have made the link that bacteria in the gut actually has the ability to communicate with several areas of the brain, which may explain why those who have beefed up on probiotics enjoy better overall mental health.
In the past month, my digestive system failed to function 100% and I was trying to figure out what had lead to all of that. I knew that the bad bacteria in the gut were predominant because no food was being absorbed in my body. After reading this article, I realized how important our thoughts are when it comes to our physiological functions. Never would I have thought that my good bacteria are actually communicating with my brain to ensure that I am able to sustain myself. In addition, I would have never made the link between stress and good bacteria, though now after reading the article it seems quite obvious!
This study goes to show how important it is to consume food that really sustains each little bacteria and cell of our body. I have come to realize one thing out of this whole episode which is the notion that preventative medicine is far better than detective medicine. Imagine living in a world where diabetes, high cholesterol, heart diseases and cancer did not exist. What type of lifestyle would we enjoy?!
The question is: How do we get there? Instead of us thinking that we only have one life to live so we might as well eat anything, why not make a mind switch where we use food as medicine. Indeed, our ancestors have taught us that there are so many herbs, vegetables and fruits out there that have really great potential for healing and preventing. Yet, it seems that in North America and now also in the rest of the world, people seem to really develop an aversion to eating vegetables and fruits because the junk food industry really does a great job at advertizing. This is really predominant in kids who are fussy eaters and do not want to eat vegetables.
I must admit reluctantly that I was also in the same boat. In my case, prior to my condition, I just hated having to cook vegetables and eat them. I would eat them whenever my mum would cook them, but I just hated having to buy and cook them. I had developed this sense of aversion despite knowing that this was not healthy. Somehow I had assumed that my body would take care of itself and thrive even if I didn't consume vegetables. Yet, now this has totally changed. The medical condition I am in has taught me to really step out of this prisoner's mind game where I have allowed the fast food industry to rule me over by not being able to avoid buying.
I found it really hard after my shift at midnight to head home with a hungry stomach when McDonald's was open. It was too tempting and despite trying to breathe a few times to stabilize myself, my mind would just rule over and I would give in. After consuming the food, I would feel guilty and scared of putting on weight.
To add to that, stress which is triggered by thoughts and backchat are what really cause disease. I had a lot of anxiety that was building up day by day since the past few years and I had never dealt with them. I just allowed myself to take on everyone's problems and that lead to my body saying: STOP! I can't take in more shit. You need to really change this pattern that you have accepted and allowed in yourself. Start eating foods that are right for your body and that will help your body sustain itself. Do not eat those foods that will just cause more harm.
It is fascinating how we have created a world where to sustain ourselves financially, businesses that do not necessarily sustain life have to prevail. These businesses and our allowances are what cause our bodies to go haywire and then we need another business called the Pharmaceutical industry to save us. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if we all decided to stop eating junk food. If all these fast food chains were replaced by smaller family run restaurants that served healthy food, wouldn't we live in a healthier world?
There needs to be a mind shift in this world where we wake up and really realize what is going on. What we are accepting and allowing us just not helping us. It is in fact destroying us as we are living in a world where we are constantly being bombarded with products and food that we do not need to sustain ourselves. I know most of us are thinking that we need to buy these products to sustain the economy, but that goes to show that we are placing more emphasis on keeping the economy running as opposed to putting our health first. Why on earth would we allow that? Please visit http://equalmoney.org/
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